Sunday, March 25, 2012

Birthday blues

Hello! It's been a good while since I have blogged. Just needed a break I guess. Yesterday I turned 36. First year to be diagnosed with MS. I have looked back at this past year and it has been a huge blur for sure. For my last bday I had a blast with a great friend of mine,whom I met on the internet on a Weight Watchers support group. She has been one of my few rocks I tend to lean on. We had so much fun making pb cupcakes and just hanging out. I am thankful for people like her in my life.
This year my husband and I hung out with a newly wed couple,Holli and Chris. She is my good friend as well and we get to work together side by side. She had the most beautiful wedding a couple of weeks ago and I had the pleasure of being in it. We went to dinner,then had ice cream,after that we decided on going to the movies. I was actually able to stay awake and enjoyed myself!

Earlier in my day I do gotta say I got a lil depressed and felt so alone. Heard a song on the radio and actually started to get upset and cried alone in my car. I have only allowed myself to cry twice since my diagnosis. I grew up fast and had to learn quickly not to depend upon others in my life. May sound a lil mean to say this on my blog but my own father didn't even call to wish me happy birthday. That says something for sure. I'm a lucky girl though. My husband is my rock!! He let me have the day off today from cooking and he helped with my grocer shopping today. Such a sweetie <3

I do have to add that over all I have been feeling a bit better. Aside from some pain every now and again I do ok. Today I had some weirdness going on with my right eye so in the morning I will call my Nuro just to be on the safe side. Have been told that it's for sure another symptom of ms. Ok let me see...legs and arms falling asleep,headaches,constipation,sudden urge to urinate,body aches,dizzyness,the list goes on and on lol!! I'm lucky though really I am! So far no loss of sight and nor am I in a wheel chair. :))

From now on each birthday will be special and I will continue to push on. No giving up here allowed. Your only as young as you feel and right now I feel 60 but that's ok!!! LOL just kidding.

Well thanks for taking the time to read my blog and I promise to post more often!! :))

Amy